I'm pretty sure I had another miscarriage.
I can't be sure, but... I'm pretty sure.
No positive test this time. No test at all.
Three months after my miscarriage my cycles are still completely screwed up, so I wouldn't know when to take it anyway. I try to remember to pee on a stick once a month, but... eh.
So here's the story.
Even though my cycles have been messed up, I've not gone longer than 4 1/2 weeks between cycles. Usually 3 - 4. I was expecting my period any day, but day after day it didn't come.
I knew I was late when Jason asked me why I hadn't started yet.
The same time I was waiting for my period to start I had the same excruciating pain in my back that I had 3 months ago.
Of course, 3 months ago, with no history of miscarriage and a LONG history of back problems, I thought my back was acting up, even though the pain was different.
This time, I recognized it immediately. The same pain. In my back, but just slightly off to the left side.
Excruciating. On a scale of 1 to 10, I give it a 73.
And this is coming from a woman who has been dealing with back pain for 10 years.
But it only ever lasted a few seconds. The longest time maybe a full minute. Then it would go away.
I was worried. Waiting for my period to start and a pain I recognized as occuring the same time as my miscarriage? Yeah, I was worried.
Then my "period" started. Maybe a week later than I expected. Heaver than normal. More clotting than normal.
Probably because it was an early term miscarriage. Probably.
Until now, I've only ever told Jason.
I just don't feel like re-hashing it again and again. I cried twice, and try not to think about it. In fact, this happened several weeks ago. I just didn't feel like sharing it yet.
But I like keeping my progress up to date on my blog. Both for my readers, and for my future reference. So there ya go.
As always, thanks for checking in.